Documentary & Portrait Photographer,
Indonesia
Projects
Bayangan Ayah
Outdonesia
That’s How I Feel About You (Kita Baik)
Nadi Yang Tersubunyi
Portraits
Other Works
Information
2023 - Ongoing
Over time, I realized that my search was not only about understanding my father, but also about questioning the image of fatherhood I had inherited and carried with me. Growing up in post-1998 Indonesia while attending a private Christian international school, I came to recognize how different histories, cultures, and generations shaped the ways my father and I understood affection, masculinity, family, and faith.
Drawing from childhood photographs, handwritten annotations, domestic spaces, and fragments of everyday life, I piece together our relationship through memory rather than chronology. Rather than seeking to explain my father or define his experiences, I photograph my own process of understanding, acknowledging that some conversations may never happen and some histories may remain beyond my reach.
As the project continues to evolve, Bayangan Ayah has shifted from a search for what was missing toward an attempt to see what has always been present. By embracing uncertainty and the incompleteness of memory, the work reflects on how family, cultural inheritance, and personal history shape the ways we come to know one another across generations.